The Writings

Confusion

Now a day’s situations
has resulted this confusion.
I’m certain it’s the cause of this collision
between the head and the heart.
The head is tryna get ahead and play smart.
The heart, arrh… well its tryna play its part.
Rolling on nothing but feelings.
Rolla coasting the emotion,
tears steady soaking.
This shit is mind blowing,
but the mind is already knowing.
The heart is a puzzle and its puzzling
the mind’s intelligence.
I think I’m losing diligence.

Confusion

Can be a fucking destruction.
The stress from un-answered questions.
To not know is a weakness.
Let’s not add to the equation,
these ongoing madness.
How did I end up with these curse’ful conditions?
it’s like something is blocking my hearts connection.
I’m feeling so distant from everything and more.
I can’t quite remember how, my mind is so gone.
I’m losing track of the purpose of this poem right now.
I don’t know, but I feel relieved every time I write down
how I’m feeling. My feeling is what I’m tryna figure out.
But I have no idea what is going on, I’m clueless.
I don’t even know what I’m gonna be relieved off
I’m thinking about ending this poem, it seems useless

Confusion

It’s like I know and I don’t know.
Intertwined. I don’t know what to know.
Why am I feeling like this? I don’t know.
What’s going on in my head? You don’t want to know.
Damn! Something is wrong. That much I do know.
It’s like… When like… You feel like… you know.
But then sense just to come to you anymore
and you’re just lost to figure things out.
But then you get more confused than ever.
And this can go on forever like etc…

Unnecessary confusion led to this poem with no meaning

I want you to know,

I just cried my first cry of the year.
It was for the best so it’s my best cry of the year.
I cried because I was wishing you was here,
so I can grab you by the hand and pull u near
while I whisper I love you in your right ear.

But I can’t,

so I wisher it in the air
and throw my wishes to the sky.
Hope that the wind picks it up
as it blows right by

and sends it to you.

I want you to know I’m still into you.
I want you to know, I’m still missing you.
I want you to know, I’m still feeling you.

With every breeze that ever hit you,
I want you to know, I’m still in love with you.

knock knock
whose there?
anger!
anger who?
anger me one more time!!!

i’m releasin anger on this page
my anger has been caged
for so damn long, my anger is over aged
my anger’s tank is full,
its heavy on my brain
i’m gone keep spilling anger
until anger is drained

anger got his lincese
now its driving me insane

drove me to the bank
where my memory lay
gave me a statement
of every prick that has wrong me till today

like a beast out of a cage
i’m looking for some dinner
with my two glowing red eyes
i dnt give a middle finger

i’m angry and i’m hungry
i smell beef a mile away
with my two glowing red eyes
i see cow’ards from far away

my remedy was to kill tonight
aint you glad i choose to write!

hi everybody. hope yall are doin better than me. I’m doing gud but my mind is not.i have too much going on inside and i’m goin to share it with yall, hope you dnt mind.my mind is moving too fast, my thoughts are getting deeper befor i get to think it so i’m just typing what ever i pick up on. it is going to be messy.i will not bother to re-read, so sorry if it doesnt make sense. i hope yall are ready. dnt worry bout the gramma or whatever coz Lord knows i’m not, i had to take ma english GCSE 3 times… 3rd time is the charm. so yeh. i was jus thinking (cos thats what i do.. alot) and i just do not understand why i just dont care about a lot of things… i barely even worry and i’m a virgo. i read bout this thing in wiki @ataraxia@ and i think i have that. shit ma keyboard is set to some next country. oh well… so i yeh and its like i just dont worry. except when i’m after something (if that makes sense)… nobody UNDERSTANDS ME TOO WELL… i admit i like to go around the bush when i’m expressing ma self, ma emotions, ma feelings… only coz i want sum1 to understand me(i think)… so yeh all this messy can be cut short, but I WILL NOT DO THAT.. i know why ma brain is full ryt now.. but i would like to tell a long story bout it.. she how i’m talking rubish ryt now? i am not making sense to ma self ryt now. DO YOU UNDERSTAND ME??? (explain) who the *uck put this guy on ma playlist? young berg.. i dnt know what he is about… so shit i’m messed up… when ma head is clear i’m like the coolest person to kick it with. but ryt now the closes person to me will get it, not in a violent way. (just me talking them to death) and i dnt even like talking much (some ppl might argue about that). my fingers are getting tired. i’m soo not fit for this… i’m a complicated case. i wish someone can solve me tho.. sometimes i think i have figured ma self out.. then ma brain giggles and makes fun of me loool.. that jus made me laugh. ANOTHERTHING.. i laugh alot.. why? i could be at gun point and i’ll be laughin (not entirely true.. i will faint) after i laugh.. loool. oh my goodness, its going to be a long night.. i ACTUALLY dont expect anyone to read this. but if u happen to read this. ciara is kinda hott and i have a crush on keri hilson, not really i dnt have crushes, i’m kinda realistic bout shit like that.. oo i said shit i was tryin to to sweh but shit happens… if you have read this far, WELL DONE.. i will be gettin to the bottom of all this nonsense in a minit. if you are lucky. so to cutt a long story short. YOU WILL NEED A KNIFE. loool i crack ma self up.. who else thinks thats funny?? lol oh man.. you know why this is hapening? its exciting but at the same time soo stressful. i doesnt happen often.. only when i’, so sure like the anti-bio thingy thing thing.. u know SURE for ur ampit.. talkin bout ampit i need to shave mine… I THINK I REALLY REALLY LIKE DIS GIRL…ok i said it.. see when ur patient wit me, i eventually get to the end of ma bush. lol.. i really dint have to go round the bush to say that I REALLY REALLY LIKE DIS GIRL… but i have, and what? who want it?

I REALLY LIKE DIS GIRL.

that’s basically whats goin on in my head while i was writing this. I REALLY REALLY LIKE DIS GIRL.. i jus couldnt say it.. why??? cus i’m a virgo (les jus blame virgo) i feel relieived now.. i trhink i will go to bed now.. thinking about this girl.

like i dnt always lol

THANKS FOR READING LOL. i’m laughin at myself posting this.. i’m always laughinng..LIFE IS GOOD!!!

I DONT UNDERSTAND WHY I DONT WORRY BOUT THINGS EVERY BODY WORRIES ABOUT..

i wanna be the one to hold you when you’re shy

i wanna be the one that whipes your tears when you cry

i wanna be the one on your mind

girl, will you be mine?

 

i wanna be the reason you smile

i wanna be the reason you shine

i wanna be your one and only

girl, will you be mine?

 

i’ll give you the world

i’ll give you the best

i’ll give you the more, never the less

girl, will you be mine?

 

will you be mine?

will you be mine?

will you be mine?

girl, will you be mine?

yes i am a star

cus i came so far

 

and i came fast, with a bright tail

a comet. A blessed one. i will not fail

 

i’m not Jesus, but i’m heaven sent

brought to this world as a present

 

a gift for you and yours

i mean mom and dad, not the whores

 

a gift for his and hers

i’ll do my part b4 i’m put in the hearse

 

here for a purpose 

my purpose i shall seek

 

light of the world 

a light i shall be

 

God gave me His words

His words i shall speak

there is only one sun in the sky

there is only one you for my eye

there is only one moon at night

there is only one you in sight

 

there is only one U and I in the alphabet

there is only one U and I in UnIty

there is only one U in I heart

there is only one U and I in I love U

 

I Love YOU

Like yesterday never happened

It’s in the past and now is a new given

It’s called the present are u in it?

Maybe not I guess I’m still dreaming

 

It’s all in my mind

When they asked, I said I’m fine

I’m not rear sighted

I don’t know what’s going on behind

Last year was a disaster but

I’m positively thinking

I guess I’m still dreaming

 

Body is banged up from the

So and so feet that I fell from

It was a long fall but

I’m able to still stand tall

I’m able to walk now so

I guess I’m able to still ball

I guess I’m still dreaming

 

Sometimes it seams

Nightmares come hand in hand with our dreams

And everything aint cookies and cream

That’s when I dare to dream big

 

I move effortlessly,

The dream, I’m still in it

Pops said I’m lazy,

I said, “pops I’m still dreaming”

 

sometymz i sit and write down ma thoughts

sometymz when i open up my mouth, what comes out is coughs

sometymz i wonder, why sometymz i’m under

and nothing seems to be getting any better

 

these trials and tribulations

is taking over my concentrations

i’m so tired of the waitings

Help me Lord please, i’m loosing patience

 

the ones that owe me aint making payments

they looked me right in my eyes 

and kicked me to the pavements

i still picture the contract when i close my eyes

favour for a favour was the agreement

 

i need a way out of these hard times of pain

somebody please hand me an umbrella for the rain

a coat for the cold

and something to smooth out this rocky road

God temper the wind to the shorn lamb

 

 

I’m praying for help and some sunshine

hope my faith stay strong this time

I pray that God keeps his watch on

so He can keep me under His watch 

life without God is like,

changing gears without hitting the clutch 

I need you God, without you i’m lost

Feels like I always want what I can’t have

Because everything I do want,

I catch and then it falls

You can say it’s not meant to be

But what’s not meant to be is…

It falling

Like winter rain

Hitting on my windowpane

Leaving bruises and inner pain

It said, “It’s never a loss, it’s a lesson”

It’s a blessing and I’m learning

I’ll keep ma head up and keep going

I’ll keep pursuing

even though its burning

I can’t get enough. I guess I like falling

So I’m going to keep falling

until

I fall in Love